.Monday, April 19, 2010 ' 12:14 AM Y
I just keep having this very weird feeling in my heart. A feeling of being very insecure. I don't know how am I gonna explain to you D. What am I supposed to do?
Wherever I go, its like there's no sense of belonging. The feeling is like no matter how big the world is, tou meii you wo rong shen zhi cu. Sometimes I just wanna burst out everything, I just need a listening ear who is patience enough to listen. But is it that difficult who can find a person who really understands all which I say?
Who would really wan a selfishh, self-centered, not even understanding and always forces her own bf to do things which he is'nt happy like me? I'm just a person who just wanna see you everyday cause I miss you. This is a simple reason but you said it till I feel like i'm some kinda slut and bitch who throws myself to you even when I know you don't like it. Hearing it, I seriously feel very cheap as a girl. Do you even know all this things when you told me how did I ever feel?
Upset but I don't show it to you. You've got a loving family which I yearn for so much but I don't have. Troubles are kept but do you even know about how much it really affects me? Yes I'm smiling, but I'm bleeding on the inside.
