.Friday, December 4, 2009 ' 9:08 AM Y
So now I understand that you're not totally mine at all.
My CA once told me what for you need a BF if you find friends are much more inportant. I thought over it, its true. If you were to do this right now, you will do that in the future to your future wife. Don't say you won't cuz it's part of you already. Babyy, you once told me that I'm was very important to you but from your actions and what I see, what you once told me was a lie. You said that you were going home straight away but you promised them that you were going to find them. Then what about you going home that you told me? If I was important to you, you wouldn't have broke those words which you told me. From your actions and everything, I can see that you totally don't need me at all. As long as you have your friends and brothers would be enough for you.
I thought that if you were to go home, I could call or train your character up to try my best to entertain you. But ended up you told me that you really wanted to go and ask me not to let you be in a difficult position. It hurts really a lot. But no matter how much I didn't wanna let you off, I still let you go out of my sight. This feeling sucks but I still must bear with the pain, anger, sadness and disappointment. I really wanted you to get home ASAP to get as much rest as possible. But you didn't understand my good intention at all. You made me feel like a damn fucked up fucking hell badd person when you said I was letting you in a difficult position. If that's the case then in future just go ahead and do whatever you wanna do. I won't stop you already. Sorry for putting you in a difficult suituation. I'm so damn sry. Just do what you wish to do. I won't stop you already. Don't say that sometimes you will do things against my wishh or what if those things that I don't want you to do you won't do it. Your actions proves otherwise. If you really know how to think, you wouldnt have done this.
