.Sunday, December 6, 2009 ' 10:21 PM Y
Doing a short blogging now. Don't know why it feels weird ah. Ever since hearing that babyy went to drink with two girls, though he kept telling me that those two girls are like 'buang' I can't deny it but seriously speaking, I'm jealous. Seeing that babyy's hand got so many scars due to cigg burnt, my heart is in pain ever single time I see it. And still can't sleep well cuz of what happen ytd. I keep thinking about the part where he go drinking with two girls. I'm like feeling super jealous ah. It was'nt used to be like this last time. Why now? I don't wanna feel so jealous so easily. I'm scared of a heart break again. I don't know what should I do to keep myself from feeling this way. I'm just so damn du lan and irritated with myself. I just wanna stop myself in whatever I'm doing. I don't wanna fall for you anymore. Its enough. The more easily I get jealous, the more it means I like you. I don't want that to happen cuz the more I like you the more I'll control you and the more you would be unhappy. I think I'm afraid of losing you even more than you losing me. I'm stuck. Why have you captured my heart till like this. What am I even supposed to do now when I'm saving you but not saving myself at all as I fall deeper. NOO..
