.Sunday, May 10, 2009 ' 6:10 AM Y
Sick this few days.:(:( Don't know why I've been feeling moody this days. Maybe it's due to my illness. Fought and quarrelled with my father yesturday over somethings. Still dam fucking pissed off with him. I swear to him that I will never forgive him and will hate him because of this. I told him that I did'nt have a like him. My father was dead a very long time ago. Sometimes I will miss the past. At least back then I knew I was much happier when I was with them. But coming to think about it. When was the last time we went out together as a family? When was the last time we went out to eat together happily? When was the last time we went shopping together? When was the last time we did things together as a family? I seriously can't remember. Doesnt family means all this? FatherAndMotherILoveYouBut to me, this house is like a place for me to sleep and eat. Nothing else.. seriously confused with my feelings. I don't know what I want in life at all. I don't know how am I feeling at all. It's like all my emotions and feelings has totally been mixed up.
